[Intro]

Yeah…

I ain’t proud of this shit…

But it’s me… every flaw, every crack…

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[Verse 1]

I’m a fuck up, yeah I said it, I don’t sugarcoat lies

Got a war in my chest and it lives in my mind

Every word that I speak come out twisted and wrong

They don’t hear what I mean, just the tone in my songs

I be trying to explain but I choke when I start

Like my voice got anxiety stitched into my heart

It ain’t what I’m saying, it’s the way that it land

Like I’m screaming for help but they don’t understand

I don’t like people, nah, I don’t feel safe

Every room feel tight, like it’s closing my space

Eyes on me, yeah I swear I can feel ‘em all stare

Like I’m naked with my demons and they all aware

So I lock in the bathroom just to breathe for a sec

Heart racing so fast like it’s breaking my chest

I ain’t living, I’m hiding, just surviving the day

Every step out the door feel a mile away

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[Verse 2]

I was sixteen, yeah, running wild in the streets

Had the weight in my pocket, had no fear in my feet

Always solo, never trusted no one on my side

‘Cause they fold or they steal or they talk and you fried

Then it hit me—six deep, yeah they wanted my soul

Big bodies, no mercy, they was out of control

Left me bleeding in the dirt, teeth shattered and gone

Now I cover up my smile like I did something wrong

Used to have a clean grin, now it’s broken and cracked

Now I keep my lips sealed, never showing that back

Self-conscious in silence, yeah I bury that pain

Every mirror feel like it’s just mocking my face

And the drugs? yeah they numbing but they feeding the fire

Temporary escape but it’s a permanent wire

Got me chained to a feeling I can’t ever outrun

Like I traded my peace just to feel something numb

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[Hook]

I say everything wrong, but I swear I mean right

Got a war in my head every day, every night

I don’t fit in the world, I just fade outta sight

I’m a ghost in my body tryna learn how to fight

I can’t smile no more, I just hide what I lost

Every scar got a story, every breath got a cost

I’m a mess, I admit it, yeah I pay what I owe

I been trying to find peace but there’s no way to go

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[Verse 3]

Appointments on my phone but I miss ‘em again

Always late, always lost, never showing up when

I say I’m gonna change but I don’t even move

Like I’m stuck in the mud with nothing to prove

People say “get it together,” like it’s easy to do

But they never felt the panic when it’s swallowing you

When your lungs feel locked and your chest feel tight

And your thoughts go dark in the middle of light

Ignorance all around me, yeah I hate what I see

Fake smiles, fake love, fake energy

So I move by myself, yeah alone in the night

‘Cause alone feel safer than a snake in plain sight

But that loneliness heavy, yeah it crush on my ribs

I built walls so high now I’m stuck where I live

Ain’t no way in or out, it’s a prison I made

Outta pain, outta fear, outta choices I played

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[Bridge]

I ain’t asking for pity, I ain’t begging for love

Just explaining the chaos that I’m made up of

If I ever break out, if I ever get free

I just hope there’s a version of me… I can be

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[Hook]

I say everything wrong, but I swear I mean right

Got a war in my head every day, every night

I don’t fit in the world, I just fade outta sight

I’m a ghost in my body tryna learn how to fight

I can’t smile no more, I just hide what I lost

Every scar got a story, every breath got a cost

I’m a mess, I admit it, yeah I pay what I owe

I been trying to find peace but there’s no way to go